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holly was on the way as i jump into the hay
whether i know yr name i'll give up at this game
every day you know i'll be yr radio
now i can see up close yll be my microscope
i hope and i pray that i give a shit today
i'll make my bed and i'll see you on the edge
deadlier than a stroke of genius going broke
diving into the snow screamin' ethel watch me go yea watch me go
other day saw yr show
religious yea i know
maybe one day we'll hope
commit to love & grow
i hope that i fail so i find out what's real
with friends i played host til i became a ghost
i'm not ashamed until i start to blame
it's heaven sent i try to fake the test
step back from the ledge & fall out of yr sick head
& i prayed that a song might save you from the edge
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2. |
The Resistance (Take 1)
02:39
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shut up give up give in
you have fucked it up again
i know the answer's now
the question's when will the city kill me?
i just wanna stay under the radar forever
it's better
& we're just gonna stay young and stupid
together forever
you are alone my friend
keeping to the path of least diligence
before you know the dance floor opens up
everybody do the resistance
quick before you slip on through the cracks
remember that the days they are just packed
and your despair is weighing down the groove
with everybody scared to make a move
but i just wanna stay under the radar forever
it's better
& we're just gonna stay young and stupid
together forever
shut up give up give in
you have fucked it up again
i know the answer's now
the question's when will the city kill me?
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3. |
Flounder (Take 1)
01:59
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trailing off our conversation(')s peak
with smiles & awkward eyes
like love that smothers deep
but cannot criticize
i'll go & show you a life beyond control
come home to find no one & flounder in the cold
catching up we love to stake our claims
compose our timid bunch
deprived tonight it's all in vain
mistaken just a hunch
i know it shows
my sweat ran through the folds
my only composure now is getting worn and old
like clothes
like mold
that shrinks before it grows
like gold
black holes
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4. |
2004 (Take 2)
01:50
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are you really on the mend now
like you said you were a few times before
there is nothing to defend now
ain't been the same since 2004
i know that you said you would figure it out
i know what you said
it was a lie
& i know that yr probably mad at me
but i don't even know what about
there are problems in the air waves
our communications break down with time
the solution has you scared straight
yr supposed to be a child of god
i know that we said we would figure this out
i know what we said
it was a lie
and i just woke up from the strangest dream
but i don't really know what about
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5. |
Freddy & Jason (Take 3)
02:09
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i know yr listening
& so i wanna tell you true
i've got this habit
crazy but there's nothing i can do
downward spiral already begun
when i was two
gun aimed at his face
along the A train passing through
but i would never pretend or assume none
isn't this just in my blood
makes me human?
back to the conversation
where do we all go from here
i calculated that i would destroy myself for years
friends they tell me that i should've left this long ago
before this tightrope walking became unmanageable
picture of calm
but my heart won't stop racing
yeah i'm a fiend
so you know i keep chasing
chase after you
just like freddy & jason
yeah he's a fiend
just like freddy & jason
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ship without sails
i've seen this all before
life skips like a broken record
over and over it's the same old story
clock tick on and on & the world keeps a-rollin'
there's no way to stop those gears from turnin
on that first time through when everything was new
i wish that we had known it was so
let's do the same junk
in the same exact way
we think it may be different
but that's insanity
i'm a ship without sails
i'm a bird without wings
i'm a rebel without a cause
i'm a word without a meaning
i have lost my only friend
without a rhyme or reason
it's driving me mad
lost in this hell forever
on the second time around there's no need to worry
cause everyone knows everything & it'll be okay
we do what we want not a care in the world
when it falls apart we say it's no big deal
why is it that we'll do it all again
day after day & year after year
each time we do we lose a little piece
of the greatest gift that anyone's received
i'm a ship without sails
i'm a bird without wings
i'm a rebel without a cause
i'm a word without a meaning
i have lost my only friend
without a rhyme or reason
it's driving me mad
lost in this hell forever
clarity
say what i mean this time
i know what's on my mind
and i'll try not to hide
what's welled up inside
i'll chalk it up to clarity
i thought i knew too much
but i never knew enough
& you say how it feels
hard to be me
it's all a part of clarity
what would i say
talking all day
it's always a dazzling display
how could i be
caught in between
being unheard & unseen
so when it's hard to talk
feels not a part of me
i waste my days
not much to say
i pay the price of clarity
paid the price of clarity
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7. |
Sign Up (Take 1)
02:10
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do the best that you can
with the time you have been given
i'm surprised that you have made it
past sixteen you fucking cretin
i'll have you know that i beat this shroud
i'll have you know that i'll be around
failure has arisen
this was never part of my plan
slowly coming to my senses
demons are my best defenses
a pioneer of the living dead
becoming a volunteer
of the spirited & then a
pioneer of the living dead becoming
a volunteer of the spirited
a volunteer of the living dead
becoming a pioneer
of the spirited
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step slow over grass & sand
look low for the bees & the broken glass
i was the villain once it seems
I am the hero in my dreams
singing noel, christmas time is fear
oh well, here comes another year
i was a hero once it seems
i am a villain in my dreams
don't look now
this might have to come up again
we force it down
before ever making amends
bless this communion
of force & of whisper revived
the plot will thicken
i can't say this mess was contrived
some are sicker than others
all that i know
some are sicker than others
i know that some are sicker than others
some are sicker than others
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Frozen Maze (Take 3)
01:54
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took a while to figure out
everything i start to doubt
what the story was about
what i want out of this life before i get too old
she is writing text from god
as the paces turn to plod
spare my lungs & bless my heart
i want out of this game before i get too old
i want out of this place before it gets too cold
took all of the games that people play
threw them away but for two
except if it weren't for you
& look what you made me do
this is not a call to quit
this is something infinite
even i have to admit
that we got out of this race before it got too old
yea we got out of this phase before it got too cold
then we got out of this maze before we went & froze
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we've seen it all & we're desensitized to the thrill of shame
we watched a folly that eroticized us
we're playing stupid games with love
i won't deny the truth
smash a face right through the phone booth
do what you oughta do to make some sense of things
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Emotional (Take 8)
02:14
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follow the rules you were taught
but never compromise yr heart
got you a woman who recognized your worth
but when a generous soul
can lose control of what it's known
grabbing the handlebars
as the bike runs on & off the road
i know yr just like me
fighting to save the family
please be a man & cry
feel like you lived before you die
sometimes you feel better
& sometimes you remember
sometimes it gets better
& sometimes you forget it
sometimes it gets better
& sometimes you remember
sometimes you feel better
& sometimes you forget it
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12. |
Peek a Boo (Take 5)
05:01
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when i'm down
really down
nothing matters
nothing does
i close my eyes
to go sleep
but i can't sleep
i can't sleep
please hear my cry for help & save me from myself
junior high
i lost my mind
i don't know why it's a terrible thing
since that day
it's been a struggle
trying to make sense out of scrambled eggs
please hear my cry for help & save me from myself
i painted a bar
& i never got paid
in a town where everyone was unemployed
i was locked in
on easter day
all i had to eat was a piece of bread
when i got home
my mother said
you're a lazy bum
& that's how come
you suffer like that
& yll starve all your life
all your life
spoken just like it was a curse
but it didn't really sound so bad
i like to make things up
it's the healthiest thing that i do
but i'm tired
from being kidnapped
by a dark wolf
that would do me in
please hear my cry for help & save me from myself
i'm just saying how i feel
maybe you could try to understand
i'm a man who needs you
when i'm down
really down
nothing matters
nothing does
i close my eyes
to go to sleep
but i can't sleep
i can't sleep
you can listen to these songs
have a good time & walk away
but for me
it's not that easy
i have to live these songs forever
please hear my cry for help & save me from myself
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J Boxer Brooklyn, New York
NYC writer, mix-maker, songcreator & multi-instrumentalist since '03. Favorite food = cold xtra spicy sesame
noodles
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email: reddwarfcomestogether@gmail.com or BLUFFINGband@gmail.com even though both projects are currently broken up/in hiatus
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